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Sunday, February 15, 2004

what force is your soul

You are guided by the earth itself. People like you are very rare. You are in tune with everything around you. While you try to bring peace to the world, you can sometimes create pain to those around you. You generally don't take risks.

hey. cool cool. take note of the PEOPLE LIKE YOU ARE VERY RARE part. nice. niwala ka? I DO! u should too coz it's true. hahah. i wish! again, i took this thing from quizilla suking suki. naxx. this is cool. i won't erase this.

Posted at 02:48 pm by causingxii
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Saturday, February 14, 2004

happi feb 14

I have a boyfriend who grew up with me.

His name is Jin.

I always thought of him as a friend until

last year, when we went to a trip from a club.

I found that I fell in love with him.

Before that trip was over, I took a step and

confessed my love for him. And soon, we became a

pair of lovers, but we loved each other in

different ways.

I always concentrated on him only, but by his

side, there were so many other girls.

To me, he was the only one, but to him, maybe

I was just another girl�

�Jin, do you want to go watch a movie?� I

asked.

I can�t�

�Why? You need to study at home?� I felt

disappointment grabbing me.

�No� I am going to meet a friend��

He was always like that.

He met girls in front of me, like it

 was

nothing.

To him, I was just a girlfriend.

The word �love� only came out from my mouth.

Since I knew him, I had never heard him

say �I love you� before.

To us, there weren�t any anniversaries at all.

He didn�t say anything from the first day and

it continued till 100 days�200days�

Everyday, before we say goodbye, he would

just hand me a doll, everyday, without fail.

I don�t know why�

Then one day�

Me: Um, Jin, I �

Jin: What�don�t drag, just say..

Me: I love you.

Jin: ��you�.um, just take this doll and go

home. That was how he ignored my �three words�

and handed me the doll.

Then he disappeared, like he was running away.

The dolls

 I received from him everyday,

filled my room, one by one. There were many�

Then one day came, my 15th year old birthday.

When I got up in the morning, I pictured a

party with him, and stranded myself in my room,

waiting for his call.

But� lunch passed, dinner passed� and soon

the sky was dark� he still didn�t call.

It was already tiring to look at the

phone

anymore.



Then around 2am in the morning, he suddenly



called me and woke me from my sleep. He told

me to come out of the house.

Still, I felt joy and I ran out happily.

Me: Jin�

Jin: Here�take this�

Again, he handed me a little doll.

Me: What�s this?

Jin: I didn�t give it to you yesterday, so I

am giving it to you now. I�m going home now, bye.

Me: Wait, wait! Do you

 know what today is?

Jin: Today? Huh?

I felt so sad, I thought he would remember my

birthday.

He turned around and walked away like nothing

Had happened.

Then I shouted�

�Wait��

Jin: You have something to say?

Me: Tell me, tell me you love me�

Jin: What?!

Me: Tell me

I put my pathetic self behind and clung on to

him.

But he just said simple cold words and left.

�I don�t want to say�that I love someone so

easily, if you are desperate to hear it, then

find someone else.�

That was what he said. Then he ran off.

My legs felt numb�and I collapsed to the

ground. He didn�t want to say it easily�

How could he�.

I felt that�

Maybe he is not the right guy for me�

After that day, I stranded myself at home

crying, just crying.

He didn�t call me, although I was waiting.

He just continued handing me a little doll

every morning outside my house.

That�s how those dolls piled up in my room�

everyday

After a month, I got myself together and went

to school.

But what made the pain resurface was that� I

saw him on a street�with another girl�

He had a smile on his face, one that he never

Showed me�as he touched the doll�

I ran straight back home and looked at the

dolls in my room, and tears fell�

Why did he gave these to me�

Those dolls are probably picked out by

 some

other girls�

In a fit of anger, I threw the dolls around.

Then suddenly, the phone rang. It was him.

He told me to come out to the bus stop

outside my house.

I tried to calm myself down and walked to the

bus

 stop.

I kept reminding myself that I am going to

forget him, that� it�s going to end.

Then he came into my sight, holding a big

doll.

Jin: Jo, I thought you were pissed, you

really came?

I couldn�t help hating him, acting

 like

nothing had happened and joking around.

Soon, he held out the doll as usual�

Me: I don�t need it.

Jin: What�.why�

I grabbed the doll from his hands and threw

it on the road.

Me: I don�t need this doll, I don�t need it

anymore!! I don�t want to see a person like

you again! I spitted out all the words that

were inside me. But unlike other days, his

eyes very shaking.

�I�m sorry� He apologized in a tiny voice.

He then walked over to the road to pick up

the doll�

Me: You stupid! Why are you picking up the

doll?! Just throw it away!!!

But he ignored me and just went to pick the

doll.

Then�

Honk~ Honk~

With a loud honk, a big truck was

 heading

towards him.

�Jin! Move! Move away!� I shouted�

But he didn�t hear me, he squatted down and

picked up the doll.

�Jin, move!�

HONK~!!

�Boom!� That

 sound, so terrifying.

That�s how he went away from me.

That�s how he went away without even opening

his eyes to say one word to me.

After that day, I had to go through everyday

with guiltiness and the sadness of losing him�

And after spending two months like a

 crazy

person� I took out the dolls.

Those were the only gifts he left me since

the day we started going out.

I remembered the days I spent with him and

started to count the days� when we were in love�

�One�two� three��

That was how� I started to count the dolls�

�Four hundred and eighty four� four hundred

and eighty five��

It all ended with 485 dolls.

I then started to cry again, with a doll in

my arms.

I hugged it tightly, then suddenly�

�I love you~, I love

 you~�

I dropped the dolls, shocked.�I�.lo..ve�you??�

I picked up the dolls and pressed its stomach.

�I love you~ I love you~�

It can�t be!

I pressed

 all the dolls� stomach as it piled

on the side.

�I love you~�

�I love you~�

�I love you~�

Those words came out non-stop.

I�love you�

Why didn�t I realize that�

..

That his heart was always by my side,

protecting me.

Why didn�t I realize that he love me this

much�

I took out the doll under the bed and pressed

it�s stomach, that was the last doll, the one

that fell

 on the road.

It had his blood stain on it.

The voice came out, the on that I was missing

so much�

�Jo�Do you know what today is? We�ve been

loving each other for 486 days. Do you know what

486 is? I couldn�t say I love you�. Um� since I

was too shy� If you forgive me and take

 this

doll,

I will say that I love you� everyday� till I

die�

Jo� I love you��

The tears came flowing out of me. Why? Why? I

Asked god, why do I only know about all this now?

He can�t be by my side, but he loved me until

his last minute�

For that�

 and for that reason� to me� it

Became courage� to live a beautiful life�

END OF STORY.....

got this stuff from ice's blog. check it out nlang.

Posted at 11:35 am by causingxii
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Friday, February 13, 2004

hayy nako.

ARGH! guess what, i have new arch nemises<<-- tama ba? (kareen, eunice, kilala nio to)

1. gal/LANDI. whichever you want to call her.
2. gal's sidekick. certified epal. doesn't care at all how other people would feel. grrr. napaka insenstive mo, ya know that? you think you're funny? well guess what... YOU'RE NOT!! I've been nice to you and even ignored your childish behavior but what do i get in return? nothing. i am working really hard to find your positive side but i just can't see it. you see? why can't you act like you have a life for a change? you think you can please everybody when you take adventage of other people's weaknesses. ang sama mong tao! plus, you're a backstabber pa. u know what i mean? i think nman sa lhat ng clues na bngay ko alam mo na kung cno ka.

to these people: i've tried to be ur friend but i can't. u r wayyy beyond my powers. go to hell.

anywhoooo...

today happened to be our fieldtrip. it was very fun. especially in tagaytay coz it was a little cooler there. it was tiring. namamaga pa nga paa ko e. we walked and walked. come to think of it, it's like we've walked the whole day under the heat of the sun. pero kei lang coz enjoy nman e. tpos this morning i had a fight pa with my mom coz she didn't want me to join the fieldtrip. i had a little fever kc that night. pero nawala na nung morning but it's aryt na. i said sorry na for doing that. i knew nman that i was wrong. okei...

here're the people i have to thank for helping me survive the friday 13th:

1. my buds, eunice and kareen. for always being there for me in good times and in bad times. although we have our fights sometimes, u both still rock.

2. my mom. for always supporting my decisions and for being so patient with me.

3. "twelve" what?! calling you made me smile.

4. God. for healing me so that i could be a part of the trip and for being always there. he will still remain even when all the lights go out.

woooohooo! that's it. advanced happy "single awareness day", "show me the love day", "all hearts day", "valentnes day". watever you want to call it. basta, HAPPY FEBUARY 14!!!

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Thursday, February 12, 2004

protector. nice.

woohooo. protector. you know, it would be a little more surprising if i was the only person who got this result in quizilla ya know,ultimate personality test. but nevertheless. still cool.

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not a bad thursday

wooohooo. GRABE!!! today was very nice. sure na sure na ung pic coz i payed for it na. WAHAhAH! -ate iris, sorri. hnde kta nasama. next time nlang when we get the pics. ;)- yeah! soooper saya. my friend, soobrang kilig. WHATEVER KAYE! sad thing was, it was my lunch money so i didn't have my lunch. awww. anyway, it was worth it. coz when i opened the door i saw chippy. nice. she was in her pe uniform laughing. SOOOOPER CUTE! nako! u should have seen her. this dismissal din she was playing. i was suppose to ask her about the "data" stuff pero i was so scared. haha. weird noh? i guess that's just how i am. tpos, one more gud thing, we had this "grand raffle draw" this afternoon that's why we didn't have the debate in history... which is good coz I wasn't prepared. hahahah. plus, we didn't have our club which is also good coz i didn't bring something for the kite stuff. aus noh? kaso nga lang in the gym, i wasn't able to find chippy because unfortunately they were sitting behind our batch. ay onga pla, there's one more lucky thing na nangyari this day. ONE HOUR LANG ANG CL!!!! woohooo! don't take me wrong, i have nothing against our religion it's just that CL is always the you-know-who time. okay. anyway.....

i guess i have to bring my good luck charms tomorrow coz it's FRIDAY the 13th. at sa lhat nman ng kamalasan same date dn ung FIELDTRIP nmen. ayayay. i think it would be one heck of a friday. plus, OH NO! trekking. under the sun. under the sun. nako po! hnde nman sa ayaw ko ng araw pero hnde ba sobrang init ngayon sa taal? ayayay.

PREDICTIONS OF BAD THINGS FOR TOMORROW:

1. oh no! hnde papayag na mg STOP OVER.
2. it would rain so hard.
3. titirik ung bus :0
4. someone in the class would BARF... on me. eeh! gross. 5. first day of my period.
6. i would be separated from the group and wander somewhere else.
7. i wouldn't be on time to catch the bus

8. my tupperware would get lost. thus, leaving me without food AT ALL.

9. i would leave my bag somewhere.

10. "GAYBOY" would be with us during the trip. GOD! TOTAL NIGHTMARE.
11. the bus would get lost leading us to a faraway forest which is totally separated from liberation.

12. fieldtrip postponed.

NO! i would pray the whole night just so those things won't happen. and to make sure that the bus won't leave me, i would come to school at EXACTLY, 5:00 am. i don't give a damn to who's there at that time or to who's not. eek! mejo excited ba? hdne nman db? actually, excited na ko to be a senior coz they would be having their field trip sa mt. banahaw. wahahahah! walang kcng saya. especially when the class is totally bonded.

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Wednesday, February 11, 2004

rainy days

okei. let's get rid of the ring thing. this stuff. blis mawala nung effect. hnde ko na kaagad sha nagus2han. i guess it's only scary while you're watching it. see, i'm not even scared na to be alone sa house. tsk tsk. anyway i have this story to tell, check it out.

RAINY DAYS

Kabisado ko na ang lugar na ito. Well-manicured ang lawn. Man-made ang lagoon. Flowering shrubs. Kahit simple lang ang libingan, halata pa ring puro mayaman ang nakalibing dito. Pero kahit yata nakapikit ako eh makikita ko ang puntod na 'to na
nalililiman ng malalaking puno ng Acacia. Binasa ko ang naka-ukit sa lapida; Jazzmani Hontiveros at Anne Peach Torrs, died on December 16, 1999. Habang tinitingnan ko ang unti-unting pagtunaw ng kandila, hindi ko maiwasang isipin sina Jazz at Peach. At kung bakit nandito sila ngayon.

Team captain ng women's basketball ng UP si Jazz. Kahit sikat siya sa campus, hindi siya ma-ere. Gayunpaman, sobra naman siyang maloko at alaskador. Hindi yata lilipas ang isang araw nang wala siyang inaasar. And one more thing: she was a lesbian-and proud of it. "Why should i apologize for it?" 'yon ang standard answer niya everytime my magtatanong sa kanya bout sa sexual reference niya. But I knew her well to know that deep inside, she was hurting.

Galing sa prominente at konserbatibong pamilya sa Cebu si Jazz. Kaya siguro hindi siya matanggap ng pamilya niya. Disgrace daw kasi siya. Isipin mo nga naman, dating governor ang tatay niya at pari pa ang isang uncle niya. Sa pamilyang tulad nila,
nakakahiya nga namang magkaroon ng anak na tibo or bading. Kinahihiya pa rin siya ng parents niya. Hindi raw siya magsa-suceed dahil tibo siya. Paparusahan daw siya ng Diyos dahil immoral siya. Kaya nga ganon na lamang ang tuwa niya ng pareho kaming makapasa sa UP Diliman. Sa wakas daw, makakalayo na siya sa pamilya niya.
Matatahimik na raw ang buhay niya kahit paano. Alam ko sinasabi niya lang yon pero masakit din sa kanya na hindi siya matanggap ng family niya.

Maliban sa pagiging team captain ng UP Maroons Women Basketball Team, consisitent din siya sa pagiging college scholar. Pero never na nalaman ng pamilya niya ang mga achievements niya. Paano ba naman, simula ng dumating kami dito, pinadadalhan na lang siya ng pera ng parents niya. Ni hindi man lang sumusulat o tumatawag para kamustahin ang anak nila. Si Jazz din, hindi na nag-try na sumulat o tumawag. "Kung noon ngang kasama ko sila sa bahay, hindi na sila interesado sa akin, ngayon pa kaya?" katwiran niya sa akin ng kulitin ko siya na tumawag naman sa bahay nila. Hindi na ko nakipagtalo. Buhat din non, hindi ko na siya kinulit pang sumabay sa pag-uwi
ko tuwing sembreak. Mula kasi nang dumating kami sa Manila, ni hindi na umuwi sa kanila si Jazz, kahit Pasko. Tuluyan na siyang naging estranged sa family niya. Tuwing bakasyon busy siya sa paga-assemble ng computer o pagdedesign ng website.
Racket niya 'yon 'yon din ang naging daan para magkakilala sila ni Peach. Sa isang exclusive school nag-aaral si Peach.

Naghahanap ng web design ang sorority niya para sa web page nila. It turned out that one of our classmates was her sis sa soro. Nirekomenda ng classmate naming si Jazz. Isinama ako ni Jazz nang makipagmeeting siya kay Peach. Peach was a stunner. With her doe eyes, acquiline nose and creamy complexion, madaming nanliligaw sa kanya. Before I knew it, nagko-confide na sa akin si Jazz. She was smitten daw by Peach's charm. I warned her to take it easy. Peach was so beautiful. Marami siyang karibal. "Well, I've been turned down by my own family. One more rejection wouldn't hurt that bad, right?" She grinned. Natawa nalang ako sa sinabi niya. "Bahala ka nga sa buhay mo," sabi ko.

Ibang klaseng manligaw si Jazz. Simple lang, minsan nga baduy na eh. Instead of flowers and chocolates, ginagawan niyang funny cards si Peach. O kaya naman, dadalhin niya sa Sunken Garden at pakakainin ng fishball at tukneneng, habang kinakantahan niya ng mga mushy songs. Niloko ko nga siyaminsan. Sabi ko, paano siya
magugustuhan ni Peach eh ang baduy-baduy niyang manligaw. Katwiran naman ng gaga, hindi naman daw kasi puwedeng lantaran niyang ligawan ni Peach. Una, bawal sa school nila. Madre kasi ang nagpapalakad. Pangalawa, may sorority nga si Peach. Ano na lang ang sasabihin ng mag sisses nito? Although Jazz was such a charmer, nagulat pa din ako nang sagutin siya ni Peach. I remember pa nga that time so well. I was studying for my Math 17 dep exam nang dumiting siya sa apartment. She was wearing this silly grin on her face. "Guess what?! Sinagot na ako ni Peach!" I didn't know what to say. Part of me was skeptical. Paano kung nagti-trip lang si Peach?
Jazz had been through a lot and I didn't want to see her get hurt again. But the glint of happiness in her eyes somehow reassured me. It convinced me that maybe � just maybe � Peach was the person who would make Jazz happy.

Peach easily fit in Jazz' life. Kapag pareho ang vacant periods nila, sabay silang kumakain ng lunch. Kung hindi naman, text galore naman sila, reminding each other na wag mag-skip ng lunch, and other mushy things. Kapag gabi na ang uwian ni Peach, susunduin naman siya. Minsan nga nagseselos na ko. I felt na wala ng time si Jazz
for me. Pero konsolasyon ko na lang na makitang masaya si Jazz. Nakita ko rin kung paano alagaan ni Peach si Jazz. Binibilhan niya si Jazz ng vitamins, pinapagalitan kung hindi kumakain. Nang magkasakit nga si Jazz, si Peach ang nag-alaga sa kanya for three days. And one thing about them, they pulled each other up. They were each
other's strenght. When the Maroons lost an important game to UST, Jazz was so disappointed. And Peach was there to comfort her. She even cooked chicken adobo, Jazz' favorite food. Before I knew it, Peach moved in with us. At mas lalo kong nakita
kung gaano nila kamahal ang isa't isa.

Gustong-gusto ng dalawa kapag malakas ang ulan. It was their excuse to just stay in bed, cuddling up, drinking hot cocoa while watching a video. Sometimes, they'd curl up sa sofa reading a book together. There was this time pa nga na naligo sila sa ulan. At ang gagong si Jazz, kumuha pa ng sabon at shampoo! Feel na feel talagang maligo
sa ulan ni mokong! Minasan biniro ko si Jazz. Sabi ko kumusta ba ang may active sex life? "Gago!", natatawang sabi ni Jazz. "pero alam mo", seryosong sabi ni Jazz, "Peach and I don't have sex. We make love." "Fucking and making love?" "What's the difference?", I asked. "I don't know. It's an explicable feeling eh. It's more than physical pleasure. It's more of the mind, of the soul." "Corny mo talaga," biro ko kay Jazz. Kahit sobrang in-love sila, they were still extremely cautios na wag malaman ng iba ang relationship nila. Ni hindi nga nagho-holding hands kapag nasa public.

Pero sabi nga, wala namang lihim na naitatago. Eventually, nakaabot sa parents ni Peach ang balita. Dumating ang parents niya sa apartment. Napagkamalan ngang ako si Jazz. Pagbukas na pagbukas ko ng pinto eh tinalakan na ako. "Teka nga," naiirita kong sagot, "eh hindi naman ho ako si Jazz eh". Narinig pala ni Jazz ung pagbubunganga ng mother ni Peach kaya lumabas ito. Kung anu-anong masasakit na salita ang ibinato ng parents ni Peach kay Jazz. Kesyo idinadamay raw nito ang unica hija nila sa pagka-immoral. Na wala naman daw mapapala si Peach sa isang tibo. Iyak ng iyak noon si Peach, begging her parents to understand. Tahimik lang si Jazz,
nakikinig. Maya-maya tumayo ito. Umakyat sa kwarto nila. Pagbaba, may dala nang bag, laman ang gamit ni Peach. "What are you doing?", naiiyak nitong tanong kay Jazz. "Sumama ka na sa kanila," "You're letting me go just like that?! Fight for me naman, Jazz. Please." Nakayakap na si Peach kay Jazz, halos lumuhod na dito.
Umiiyak na rin noon si Jazz. "I love you so much Peach. Ayokong danasin mo 'yung itakwil ka ng mga magulang ." Pilit inialis ni Jazz ang mga kamay ni Peach. Ang tatay naman ni Peach, halos kaladkarin na siya palabas ng apartment. "Jazz please!" pero tumalikod na si Jazz, umakyat sa kwarto nila to shut herself from the world.

Ibang Jazz na 'yung nakita ko after that. Naging withdrawn, always staring off into space. Inaya ko nga minsang gumimik sa Malate, pero pag nasa bar na, naka-upo lang, nagyoyosi, nagbubutas ng bangko. Nabalitaan na lng naming nag-enroll sa
ibang school si Peach. At hindi raw maka-alis ng walang bantay.

Minsan nasa kalagitnaan kami ng klase noon ng may nag-text sa kanya, tapos nagpaalam. Magsi-CR daw siya. Natapos na 'yung subject hindi parin bumabalik. Tinext ko siya, asking kung nasaan siya. Maya-maya, tumawag, parang masayang-
masaya. Huwag daw akong mag-alala dahil she's fine. Wish her luck daw. Nailing lang ako. "what are you up to nanaman ba?" I asked her. "Basta!" Gabi na akong naka-uwi that day, dahil sa pago, nakatulog ako agad. Siguro mga ala-una yon, may kumatok.
Hindi ko pinansin nung una, akala ko nananaginip lang ako. Eh ang kulit. Bumaba ako at sinilip ko muna kung sino yon. Aba, mahirap na noh. Hindi ko na namalayan ang mga sumunod na pangyayari. I just foung myself in the morgue, staring at Jazz & Peach's lifeless forms. Sabi nga ng mga pulis, tinawagan daw sila ng mga room boys sa isang motel sa may Harrison. Tapos na daw kasi yung short-time, hindi parin lumalabas sa kwarto ang dalawa. Hindi naman daw sumasagot kahit kinakatok kaya't puwersahan ng binuksan. At tumambad nga sa kanila sina Jazz at Peach, MAGKAYAKAP, PATAY. Nag-overdose ang dalawa. May nakitang note ang mga pulis. It read:

"IN ANOTHER LIFETIME, MAYBE WE COULD HAVE THE HAPPINESS WE DESERVE."

Tinawagan agad ng mga pulis ang parents ng dalawa. I was glad I didn't have to talk to Jazz parents. Baka hindi ko mapigilan ang sarili ko, kung ano pa ang masabi ko. The next morning, nasa funeral home na sila. Unang dumating ang parents ni Jazz. Iyak sila ng iyak. Pero hindi ko magawang maawa sa family ni Jazz. Mahal din pala nila ang anak nila, bakit hindi nila ipinakita noong buhay pa ito? Nang dumating ang parents ng
Peach, nag-usap sila. Nag-decide sila na pagsamahin na lang sa isang libingan ang dalawa.

Umuulan noong araw na inilibing sila. Just like what Peach and Jazz would have wanted. Pero this time, they were not curled up in the sofa, drinking cocoa or cuddling. They were not out in the rain playing like kids, oblivious to the stares and smiles of the passerby. They were being lowered to the ground. Naisip ko, siguro
mas masaya na ngayon yung dalawa. For all we know, baka they're cuddling right now.

Before, tinanong ako ni Jazz, "What's wrong with these people?" May nadaanan kasi kaming simbahan, tapos may streamer sila announcing a healing explosion. Pati daw mga gays will be cured to their homosexuality. Pikang-pika noon si jazz. Pero, ako naman tinatawanan ko lang siya. Hindi ko kasi alam kung anong isasagot ko. Now I know. We're bunch of hypocrites. All of us are sinners trying to wash off our guilt by putting down other people. And such hypocrisy led to the death of two people who loved each other so much. Their only sin: they r both gurls

Its started to rain. At first ambon lang. I watched as the flames tried valiantly to fight the onslaught of raindrops. Then the flames flickered, and with the sudden gush of the wind, were suddenly extinguished. Just like Jazz and Peach succumbing to pressures, I thought.

cool noh? yeah, i know. it would be touching kung 1st time nio plang na mabasa toh pero i know nman na lots of you guys read this already. pero, whichever. i still would like to share it. ganda kc e. shows how cruel some things or people are and the discrimination of the homosexuals. don't take me wrong, i am not pro-homos but i still think that as parents, they should've just accepted her for who she was. ayayay tlga. or even just expressed their love and showed their concern for her. once again, ayayay.

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RING FEVER!!

SHET!!!! i've watched the whole thing from the ring - ring 0 (Japanese version). THIS IS TOOOO CREEPY!!!!! too creepy that the dvd player won't even let me watch my thing. argh! you see it took me five times before it played. HALA NA!!! SADAKO's out to get me. NYAHAHAHAH. it would be funny if ever she would do such a thing. Although, I don't like to see her face AT ALL. grbe. the ring 0 pla was not that good. love story ni sadako. ay nako! WATEVER! i somehow hate love stories coz minsan, it doesn't end up happily ever after. in most love stories, someone dies or something happens to that person kaya hnde sila ngkaka2luyan. does it have to make you feel sooo depressed and does it have to pass on the burden to you. WAHAhAHAH. yeah, right. ok. so...

remember last time? i was talking about this fight i had with my bud? well, we made up na. told you it would be fast. so, like i said, i would make it up to her nlang when i get the picture from her crush.. pero i would just let her see it coz it's mine. WAHAHAHAh! what would you expect? i give it to her? NO WAY! i payed for it. ayayay 50 bucks din un noh.

hey, yeah. i almost forgot. I found this story in the web. nyahaha. creeeeeeeeeepyyyyy........... check it out nlang:

There is a gal who live in a multi story flat. Everytime when she takes the lift, when the lift reaches the middle of 4th to 5th floor, she can always feel something staring at her.

One nite, she had to return home late and was very scared to go up alone and thus asked her mom to wait for her downstair to go up with her. Her mom agreed. Little did she know that her mom had forgotten to come down. She reaches out and was relieved to see her mom. She went inside the lift with her mom, as it reaches the middle of 4th and 5th floor, she told her mom," Look, this is the place i feel spooky about."

Her mom flashed a smile, turned and said,

"DEAR, DO I LOOK LIKE YOUR MOTHER"

WAHAHAHA! yeah, ok. so, it's not that creepy. but i enjoyed telling it to my little cousins. haha. funny. you should've seen there reactions. anyway.... ok fine, that's kinda it for the day.

CYA!!!!!!!!!

Posted at 10:57 am by causingxii
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Tuesday, February 10, 2004

wooohooo

woohooo!! at last. it's done. yea, it's kinda crappy dba? well at least meron. WAHAHAHAHA!!! it took me ALOT of time to do this ya know. hehe. hnde kc ako marunong e -oo na inaamin ko- nkakahilo. yeah. but, it's a pretty cool thing to do especially when you have time to kill. yeah, and thanks a WHOLE lot to ranzel. for somehow, helping me do this. nyahahahah. okei.. anywhooo....

Here's what's up...

sobra... I had a fight with one of my best buds at school. it sucked... sobraaa!!!! napakababaw. but anyway, this person, we didn't talk to each other THE WHOLE DAY which is like a miracle kc... wala lang... usually, we easily make-up like if we fight sa recess we'd be friends again by lunch time. hahah. well, dati un, i guess. PERO basta, it's kinda like a new thing. Even my other best bud was pulled into the situation. it's stupid anyway so why talk about it- well, WALA LANG PO!. but hopefully we'd be friends again coz, she'll be gone by next month so, i'll just make it up to her nlang if friends na kami. hehe. nice noh?

Hey, I just remembered. Tomorrow, we'll be having our BATCH FREE DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!! woooohooooooooooooooo!! I will have the house all to myself plus the computer. additional woohooo!!!!! basta, i'm looking forward for a really fun day. hmm. I think I'll even go catch a movie with my buds. really cool.

wahaha!!! till here. cya!

Posted at 03:47 am by causingxii
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